Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile Jia Yin, 251294 hotmail/facebook I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits Idols 王子♥ 鬼鬼♥ Aaron 炎亚纶♥ Jiro 汪东城♥ Calvin 辰亦儒♥ Chun 吴尊♥ 小鬼♥ Friends ♥Ching yee Cindy ♥Joey Regine Shu ling Red Cross Alvin sir Elaine Maam Esther maam Jia En ♥Jiawen maam(sis) Joyce peh Kenneth sir Kingngee sir Maryam Melissa (RCYC 07) Qing xiang sir Shuying maam Xin Er (RCYC 09) Zach sir urcy! 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Thursday, August 20, 2009 yesterday my grandma stay in my house and stay over night :)) than i can use computer :)) hahaha. today my sister taking the PDA :(( i want to use larh... sian nothing to do now at english class. today got redcross training, sian, don't feel like going but i still need to go. argggg, today got foot drill, why ever time footdrill need boots de wear school shoe also can de drill marh... sian, feel like quiting red cross lol. very fuck up lol @.@ Wednesday, August 19, 2009 wednesday take height and weight: height-155.1 cm. weight-41.7 kg. lol@.@ i grow taller lerh, i was taller than my sister lerh. haha so happy :)) now having english lesson, sian nothing to do :(( later is ce lesson, sian cannot sleep, than recess, than math, than cpa. today got math test, i donnoe wether i can pass or not. yesterday chinese test i almost failed lol i got 17/25, this is my sec life first time take so low result for chinese :(( so sad lol. i want to save money to go bugis buy clother with my sister, i want to watch UP, xia dao xiao in cinema. but no money, lol. Sunday, August 16, 2009 today afternoon just come home from my grandma house, yesterday stayed over night at my grandma house. yesterday i went to OA silver accred, i passed, soo happy :D next week can go gold modular workshop with jiaen don need to be alone lerh:)) anyway afiq jiayou. yesterday my grandma passed away de first week :(( Thursday, August 13, 2009 yesterday come back from my grandma house, dame sad de lol when my grandma been push inside the thing to burn than we all cry until very sad lol the day when my grandma passed away: dame sad, we all cry until don not what lol. first day in grandma house: when i sleep i feel someone touch my leg :/ than when i open my eye and see who.... no people there, dame sad. we fold the money for her. sencond day in grandma house: we fold the light for her, meaning that when she on the way to the haven then puff way will be bright and not dark. third day in grandma house: we fold the flower for her, my grandma this year 87 years old so we need to fold 87 flower, its not easy to fold the flower its took me one whold day to fold 5 plus flower. overall i still think that my grandma still alife lol head my sister say when we are small whenever my parent scold us my grandma sure will bring us go down and buy sweet for us, until now i still think that my grandma will call us go switch on the tv and watch call us go eat mee and talk about the show we watch. i still remember my grandma like to watch what show all the show she like to watch de i have it in my house, but now she cannot watch lerh :`(( i really miss my grandma this few day stay in my grandma house very happy, when yesterday we all need to go home than i don feel like going home:( donnoe when i still can see my father side de cosin :(( i really miss them. this few day i only sleep 3 to 4 hours very tired lol... yesterday when i go thke the porridge to eat than i there choose the ingredian inside than the porridge pour on my hand lol, dame pain :(( Sunday, August 09, 2009 today is national day 09 aug 2009, my grandma(ah ma) haved passed away:(( really very sad lol, is like today she didn't even open her eyes to look at us than she just died... and somemore is at national day, i really don belived she hav gone and never come to us again. very sad, she this year 80 year old plus lerh than she still need to suffer all of the pain and she still need to put soo many tubes to let her survied but than she still left us... anyway happy 44 birthday to SINGAPORE & byebye ah ma Friday, August 07, 2009 seen long time i didn't post lerh, just come back from joey house today school NDP parade sian lol stand there for so long now leg pain lerh larh. sian lol nothing to do. my grandma go hospital again, than yesterday my dinner i eat steam boat again :)) haha
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay